Thursday, April 28, 2011

"I Love My Life..."


I feel like I have some redeeming to do from my last post. I started this blog kinda as my journal, so I guess I'm allowed to have my not-as-happy entries right? But really I'm feeling so much better about things! No more Eeyore. I've had lots of good friends reassure me about C-sections, and I've just tried to gain a better perspective. Not being able to be active right now is a bummer for me for sure, but hey at least it's not long term. Cute hubs also reminded me one evening as I was having a rough night, stressing about "What if Treagan comes too early, bla bla bla..." and he totally said everything I needed to hear. What's the worst that could happen? Okay. And if it does, it's the Lord's will. And we both know He will help us through whatever it is. Anyway, I feel totally relieved now, just being reminded that the Lord won't give us more than we can handle. Also comforting is the fact that I have a hubs that has my back. He definitely knows how to whip me into shape when I need it. So we're just gonna take each day.. day by day. The plan is to A) take it easy, B) be grateful for each day that baby Trey stays a cookin, andC) enjoy each day that I get to still go to work. ANYWAY.. Today I was driving to work and an old song I used to love came on the radio-
"I've got everything, more than I ever dreamed. I love my life. Thank God for all I have and that I love this man, who loves his wife. I love my life!" I smiled all day I think. I seriously love when I have these moments where I'm suddenly taken back by the Spirit and am reminded of all of my many blessings. I really do love my life! Anyway.. just feelin happy today :)

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!



Love our walks up the canyon...


The day I went through the Temple for the first time...




Motocross



Anniversary din din... walkin our way up to La Caille



Treated like a King and Queen... Diet Cokes, matching robes, and this manly man.. what more could a girl want?


OF COURSE I love you too, Holly and Trey. Will post more pics of you both soon I'm sure!




Tuesday, April 19, 2011

I Guess Today You Can Call Me Eeyore...


Well we had our appointment today. I really do love seeing what Treagan is doing in there. I mean I get to feel it all day, but actually seeing it just somehow melts my heart. He's a funny little man. He was spread eagle the entire ultrasound. The u/s tech just kept laughing at what he was doing. He had one hand in his mouth, sucking his thumb.. SO ADORABLE. And then the other hand... all five fingers wrapped tightly around his little boy part! Ha SO funny. She kept taking pictures and we all laughed about how he is pure boy already. We love him.
Now, that was the good news. Trey is happy and well, and perfect. SO thankful. But we did get some bad news too. The partial placenta previa that I had has now turned to complete previa. We were all hoping and praying that it would correct itself, and were actually pretty hopeful because our Doctor had told us that most cases do fix themselves. However, I'm one of the lucky 2 percent that is stuck with it. Awesome. I know, I know.. it could be worse. That's why I really am trying to keep positive and not be such a downer about it. I mean, we are really blessed. But still I have to admit it's got me bummed out today. How fitting that it's raining outside. Anyway, luckily they said they'll allow me to continue on just moderate bedrest for now. Just got to be very careful. No sudden movements, and no exertion. Which means still no exercising, and gosh that just makes me seriously sad. I really love to be able to be active so I guess that's the hardest part. The other part that's got me down was hearing my doctor tell me that we will go C-Section. I dunno why, but that gives me major anxiety! I need someone who's had a great experience with a C-section to tell me how awesome it is. I'm super nervous about that. And I'm not gonna lie, I'm a little bummed that I don't even get to experience going into labor. Sounds dumb I'm sure.. Who wants to experience labor? I did though. I guess I just always pictured it that way so being told it's gonna be different, and proably done sooner than planned just kinda stresses me out. Anyway, I'm just a little sad today. Didn't get the news I'd tried so hard to have faith for. For now we will continue to pray that Trey keeps cooking. I want to keep him in there as long as possible! Sweet boy. Anyway, just needed to get a little ventage out of my little hurting heart. Still so grateful for this whole experience and that I get to be Treagan's mama. I can't wait.